Oh I wanted him to be the one. I really really did. I really wanted to be done with this horrific thing called dating. I wanted to be done forever. So much so, that I could deal with some of his flaws. And look past the fact that he was moving this "relationship" at the speed of light. Even so much as to look past the fact that he drank more than a fish.
But as we all know, Love & Jshizzle just dont mix. They are like oil and water. Love is something only I can see in fairy tales and Disney movies. It is not something that is made for me. I am starting to think it is me. It is my fault none of these relationships work out. I can fathom another reason for it. I know what you are thinking. It is him, not me. But I am really starting to think that is not true any more.
He wanted me to hold his hand more and tell him I miss him all the time. I was just not there yet. Not after only a few weeks. I just dont move that fast. He expected me to be ok with the fact that some girl was emailing him pictures of herself. It is a big deal to me, and I am willing to be if the tables were turned, it would have been a big deal to you too. What grown man gets upset that I didnt post a picture of us on Facebook? Really? Did that really just happen? Yeah, it really did.
Marriage and the one, they are just not in the picture for me. They are just not in it for me. I am going to sit on the sidelines and watch from a distance. I am way too independent for love anyways. Once you dont have it anymore, you dont even know it is gone.
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Sounds like this guy was using you to make someone else jealous.
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